Monday, September 14, 2009

A Little Bit Snappy

Well faithful prayer warriors, yet another request has been favorably answered!  Just yesterday I asked you to specifically pray that the insurance company would not deny any claims related to my transplant.  I guess the answer is somewhat indirect, but the news is that they approved the surgery today!  This is a huge answer to prayer, and let me tell you why that is.  This particular procedure is very expensive and still considered to be somewhat experimental by many insurance companies.  When we first met my new surgeon, he asked us if we would be willing to pay out of pocket if the claim was denied.  But over the course of the conversation, he changed gears and said that he would do everything in his power to get this covered for me.  That's when he told me that this surgery would be my last hope of having an active life.  Before he walked out of the room, he assured me that I shouldn't worry, he would make sure they paid for it.  What a relief that they received the request last week and have already approved it!  Apparently this never happens so quickly and smoothly.  On Saturday night, as John and I sat in bed, enjoying the rain, I was overwhelmed with a divine peace.  I felt assured in my heart that evening that I really didnt have to worry.  Praise God!

On a much different note, the further out I get from surgery, the less pain meds I have to take, which means I'm more coherent and able to think.  All this sitting in bed and thinking gets me wound up.  I look around the condo, and all I see is a mess that I can't clean up.  I'm feeling so out of control in my life right now, and it is driving me crazy!  I find myself snapping at John about the smallest things.  But I realize that what it all boils down to is that I feel out of control.  Ahhh!!!  I so wish I could get up, clean up, exercise, shop, run the business, etc.  But I can't, and that is eating me up!  Please pray about this!


1 comment:

  1. i can COMPLETELY relate to that last paragraph!