On a much different note, the further out I get from surgery, the less pain meds I have to take, which means I'm more coherent and able to think. All this sitting in bed and thinking gets me wound up. I look around the condo, and all I see is a mess that I can't clean up. I'm feeling so out of control in my life right now, and it is driving me crazy! I find myself snapping at John about the smallest things. But I realize that what it all boils down to is that I feel out of control. Ahhh!!! I so wish I could get up, clean up, exercise, shop, run the business, etc. But I can't, and that is eating me up! Please pray about this!